Thursday, December 30, 2010
However, I think we all need to remember that people don't usually write about the fight they just had with their husband or the messy tupperware cupboard that no one sees. We (myself included) like to write about the positive things. I need not let all the stuff I read get me down because, it's not the whole picture of reality.
So, in case I've ever made anyone else feel less significant, I'd like to set the record straight with just how imperfect I am!
~I'm not as organized as I wish I was.
~I love being a stay at home mom but, sometimes I miss my old job, a lot.
~My marriage isn't perfect.
~When I'm just home during the day with Judah and Paisley, I often spend the day looking like I just rolled out of bed.
~I don't read my Bible as much as I should or pray enough but, I'm working on it.
~I stress out about little things that don't really matter.
And SO many more things!!!!
On a positive note....here is a picture of a little girl that to me is just perfect!
Monday, December 27, 2010
Yesterday morning we stayed home from church and just stayed in our PJ's. I started sorting through old toys and organizing Judah and Paisley's rooms. I don't like when there's stuff that needs to be put away and things that need a "home" so, I started working on cleaning our house up from Christmas. I pulled the bassinet out of Paisley's room and had Jeremiah put it in the garage. It's SAD to have the bassinet back in the garage. It means that our Baby #2 is already getting bigger. Paisley now sleeps in her crib and not in the bassinet in her room. She is getting older and the bassinet is back in storage for when we have another tiny baby (not anytime soon!).
Yesterday afternoon I headed out to snag some Christmas decorations that are on clearance. I love having a few new things to put on the tree each year but, I don't love full price so, I go out after Christmas and see what I can find for at least 50% off. I found a few fun things and then I headed home because it was windy and cold and I had Paisley with me.
This morning I woke up not feeling well. I think all the late nights that I pulled getting ready for Christmas are catching up with me. I don't want to be sick. I feel like I have a lot to do. Our house seems messy to me from all the Christmas stuff. I go to see the midwife today for my 6 week postpartum appointment, even though it's been 9 weeks. I don't like that I have to get weighed after the Christmas weekend because I ate WAY too many sweets. I'm ready to get really serious about loosing this dang baby weight.
I'm looking forward to taking all the Christmas stuff down and starting a new year. I think 2011 is going to be a great year. I'm thinking about my "resolutions". Do you have any New Year's Resolutions?
Friday, December 24, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Thursday, December 2, 2010
So, when things get hard, I often don't blog because if I do blog, I'll just be a big whiner. I have fun things to blog about though so, hopefully I'll get the time soon and make it more of a priority.
In the meantime, here are some recent pictures that are making me smile.
Paisley has been smiling up a storm and it's hard to catch it on camera but, this evening, I caught part of her smile. I love it!
Also, can I just brag and say that I think this little girl is getting so strong? I can't believe she can hold her head up like this already!
Here is a picture of an ornament that my mom bought for Judah when we were in Leavenworth 2 summers ago. One of the most fun things about decorating the tree is bringing out all the ornaments that have special meanings. I want to start a tradition of getting Judah and Paisley a new ornament each year and writing their name and the year on it. I think it'll be neat to have all the ornaments from each year for them and someday when they have their own homes (a very, very, long time from now!), they can have their ornaments that we've bought over the years.
Now, here is a picture that really makes me smile. My mom, with her 5 desserts on Thanksgiving. We had Thanksgiving at our house and it was really fun. Watching my mom pile her plate full of just dessert and enjoy it made me happy. She is so thin and fit so, I'm giving myself permission to blog about this.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
She got over tired this afternoon because a well meaning neighbor stopped by when she was almost asleep. The sweet lady came in and insisted on sitting and holding her. Paisley was happy but, didn't go to sleep. Time went by and before you know it, the babe had been awake for almost 3 hours, which is way too long for her. So, it just spirals down from there....grumpy baby that won't nap, grumpy mommy and a toddler that is being disobedient because he knows that mommy isn't able to give him full attention.
Anyway, we survived and both Judah & Paisley were in bed on time. It feels so good to sit down and just do nothing!
On a positive note, I feel like I'm really beginning to get used to being the mother of 2 small children. We are getting into a bit of a routine and it feels great.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Having Paisley has made Judah seem so much older to me. He's still young but, it's been hard to realize how much he's changed, in less than 2 years. I can't believe that he was just a little baby, like Paisley, not very long ago. It's true, when you have children, life starts going by way too quickly!
Paisley, 3 weeks old. Levi, 3 days old.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Friday, November 5, 2010
Right now, I like to describe Paisley's personality as spunky. She's obviously not as laid back as Judah and it's ok! Everybody is different. She isn't terribly fussy but, she does get frustrated and when she gets tired, she gets grumpy. She likes to look at our faces and she likes to lay in Judah's crib and listen to us talk while I change his diaper.
The girl needs her rest and sometimes she fights it! During the day, I have her nursing every 2.5-3hrs, then she's awake for a little while and then she gets tired. She has a little bit of a hard time settling into a deep sleep but, once she does, she takes a good nap. I've tried to shorten her awake time to make sure she's not getting over stimulated.
For night time sleep, I think she's doing pretty well! Last night she slept from 8:30pm until 1:30 (5hrs!) and then she was up every couple hours after that. The first night after she was born, she wouldn't settle down to sleep until about 1am. This didn't really surprise me because she was very active in my tummy during the evenings while I was pregnant. Each night since she was born, we've managed to get her down to bed a little earlier so, I'm happy. Judah is in bed by 8pm and we've been getting her to bed right after him and it's working. Soon, it'll probably be earlier but, I feel like we're on track.
Paisley is a great nurser! During the day, I often have to wake her for her feedings but, she's been gaining weight well and she has tons of wet and dirty diapers. I actually can't believe how many newborn diapers we're going through! She was born at 8lb, 8oz and when she was 10 days old, she weighed 8lb, 15oz. She takes her sweet time eating and I remind myself that it'll get faster. Sometimes Judah and I watch Barney or Mickey Mouse while I feed her to help keep him occupied. Other times I read him books or he just plays, doing his own thing.
How Judah is doing
Judah loves Paisley. He is learning how to be gentle and he doesn't really have it figured out yet. Sometimes he touches her really softly, other times, he just grabs her and it's so frustrating. I have to watch him so closely when he's around her because he moves so fast and he just wants to love on her. The bottom line is that he really does seem to like having her in our family and that makes us so happy!
Here they are before church today:
Monday, November 1, 2010
It's also been really emotional to have my attention divided between Judah and Paisley. Jeremiah was home with us all last week so, Judah got used to "Daddy" helping him with everything while mommy takes care of the new baby. It was super helpful to have Jeremiah home but, really emotional for me when Judah started wanting Daddy to do everything with him. I've felt so bad, like he feels I've abandoned him.
It's a new week though! Jeremiah is back at work and Judah is starting to spend good time with me again. I feel like I'm beginning to get into somewhat of a routine with both kids and it feels good. It's amazing how a person can experience such joy and sadness at the same time.
I've thought about blogging a lot lately but, I've felt like I have writers block. I don't know how that could be since I have a 1000 things I could blog about. I think it's just that there have been too many emotions.
It's a new month now and I'm happy to be back. I'm starting to feel a little more like myself and it feels good!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
He took a long nap this afternoon and when he woke up, we went outside for a walk. I put him in the stroller and walked 45minutes. If this little girl is ready to come see us, that should help her get moving. She's a girl and she's fashionably late.
Tonight, Jeremiah and I took more time with Judah than normal at bedtime. We read a few more books than we usually do and I sang him more songs than normal. It's weird putting him to bed and wondering if it's the last time that we'll be doing bedtime with him, without the new baby. I enjoyed the quiet day that we had together, it was special and just what we needed before this big transition.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Can you see the pumpkin I'm hiding behind my tummy? Yep, I can hardly see it either!
My sweet boy.....soon to be the best big brother!
Thursday, October 14, 2010
I went home and I was really scared, confused and nervous. I didn't understand why she would be small. I've had a really healthy pregnancy, Judah was huge when he was born, I was a normal size when I was born and it just didn't make sense. I started praying for little girl and I know other people were praying as well.
Saturday I went for the next NST and she did great. They want to see the baby's heart rate increase when she moves around and she was moving a ton and her heart rate did fabulously.
Monday they had me come in for another ultrasound and another NST. The ultrasound turned out better that time. She measured in the 33 percentile and about 7lb. Good news but, still confusing as to why she was so small just 5 days prior.
Wednesday (yesterday) they had me come in for another NST and another ultrasound. Of course, the NST went great and the ultrasound went really well also. She measured 8lb, 4oz and in the 65th percentile. The 3 midwives I see are totally confused. They are happy that she seems like a normal, healthy baby but, it doesn't make sense why she appeared so tiny just one week ago. They even had a radiologist go back over all the images and he said that they were correct. Maybe the 1st ultrasound was wrong or maybe God just put some fat on her bones! Who knows!!
Long story short......I have much more peace of mind now than I did a week ago. Baby is most likely just fine and because we've had 2 ultrasounds lately with good results, I don't need to keep going back in for all those tests. I've heard a lot of stories about how ultrasounds can be very wrong in determining the size of a baby and I really believe that. Even the midwife said that they can be way off. I'm just thankful that they didn't decide to induce me last week when it seemed like baby wasn't growing.
Now, I'm just putting all the worries behind me and I'm excited for this girl to join our family!
Sunday, October 10, 2010
This afternoon, I went on a walk by myself. It was the most beautiful day and it was so nice to be out walking in the sun. I took some pictures of my shadow with my cell phone. I remember when I was little, I always thought my shadow was interesting. Today, it just looked funny.
I haven't blogged as much lately because I've been "over thinking" what I want to write. I need to get back to the reason why I started blogging. I want to remember and document our everyday life. So, as I go into this next season of becoming a mother of 2, I'm going to try to not over think it or worry about what people might think of me and I'm just going to blog our normal life. It might just be little details about how baby girl is sleeping or eating.....I just want to be able to go back and see what life was like. So, no more over thinking for me!
Here's to the normal and small details that we need to remember. :)