This morning we had our ultrasound. I was so excited and to be honest, a little bit nervous. I dropped Judah off at his Auntie's and then met my husband at the medical center. The nice ultrasound tech asked us if we wanted to know the baby's gender and we said "YES!". She was busy taking all sorts of measurements for a long time and then she turned the screen towards me and showed me that it's a GIRL!!!! We are so excited!
Deep in my heart, I was hoping for a girl and I've actually felt slightly guilty for having a preference. The only reason I've had a preference is because I want to be able to have a son and a daughter. My relationship with Judah is so amazing and special and I want to experience what it's like to raise a daughter, also. We plan on having more children but, it's nice to know that we're going to be able to have both genders.
I haven't always wanted to raise a girl, though. When I was growing up, I always knew that I wanted to be a mom but, I thought maybe I'd just prefer to be a mother of boys. I was an emotional teenager, probably not the easiest to raise and I'm still an emotional person. I didn't know if I wanted to deal with all those hormones and feelings that my daughter will experience.
My outlook has changed so much over the last few years though. My mom always showed me how much she loves being a mom and it gave me a desire to be a mom. I want to be able to pass that along to my daughter. I want to deal with all the hormones, problems with boys, insecurities, and all the other things that girls sometimes face.
I'm also really looking forward to the little things like hair bows, braids, princess parties and pink clothes.
I'm so excited to see the relationship that Judah will have with his sister. I know Judah will be a good big brother and it'll be so fun to see them play together. It still doesn't even seem real that we're having a girl but, it is! This baby gave us a very good picture-not a maybe!
I feel so blessed!