I'm not sure why I've struggled with this since I've become a stay-at-home mom. Maybe it's because I don't use the mental energy at work like I used to or maybe it's because my home is my "job" now and it used to be the place that I would come home to relax in. Before kids, I could easily go sit out on the porch in the sun for a few hours and not struggle with the fact that I wasn't doing something.
The beautiful weather that we've had lately has prompted my thoughts on being able to just sit and relax. The last two days I've wanted to go sit in the sun during naptime and do nothing but, something inside me struggles with just sitting there. I know this probably sounds ridiculous but, I blog to get my thoughts out so, just bear with me. When Judah was just a baby, it was easier for me to sit and do nothing. I vividly remember going out and laying in the sun while he was napping.
Today I decided that chores and "stuff" could wait. I headed out to the deck and enjoyed the sun. I painted my toe nails with the sun shining on my back and it felt great. While I was sitting out there, a verse came to mind:
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”