Yesterday was not a fun day. I'm going to be honest here and say that I felt lonely, depressed and really down. I actually blogged about it last night and then I deleted it. Everyone has bad days and goes through hard times but, I'm finding that it's much harder to feel down when you are a mom. See, I want to be fun. I want my kids to think I'm fun and I want my happiness to rub off on them. As the mommy of the house, it seems like my mood is the biggest influence around here and how I'm doing affects the atmosphere of our home. So, when I'm having a hard time, I start feeling even worse when I think about how it could affect our children.
Anyway....today is BETTER! Paisley woke up at her ideal wake time, 7am and I got a quick shower in before Jeremiah headed off to work. Judah, Paisley and I had breakfast together and then I got a few things done while she had her morning nap. After she got up, we got ready to head to the Children's Museum.
Getting out of the house these days is a ridiculously long process. First I fed Paisley. Then I put her in her car seat with toys so, that she was safe and confined. Then I took the dog out. Then I changed Judah's diaper and gathered our snacks, diaper bag, purse and camera. By that time, Paisley has pooped in her diaper so, once again I changed her. About an hour later than I planned, we were on the road. When we are getting ready to leave the house, I'm always wondering if it's really worth it. If I really think about it hard enough, I know that it is worth it and that it's just this season of life.
The Children's Museum was super fun. Judah loved, loved, loved the big semi-truck. He pretty much drove it the entire time we were there. He would get up and go look at something else for no more than 5 minutes and then he headed right back to that big truck.
Recently I was talking to a lady who does work at a local shelter for girls that have been through some really, really hard times. She reminded me that we can never get too comfortable and we must always be able to see our kids. I think we all need that reminder because we can forget how important that is. At the playground, even if it's completely fenced, we should always be able to see our kids. I know that sometimes I just want to be able to have a conversation with another mom but, it's not worth it, if I can't see Judah. So just remember to not get too comfortable or laid back.
Now I need to go start dinner. I have a whole wheat pizza crust from Trader Joe's that I was thinking about trying out but, I also have a whole chicken that was thawing and needs to be cooked soon. Getting a whole chicken ready to be baked makes me almost turn vegetarian so, I think we'll be going with the Trader Joe's pizza for tonight!