As I sit down to write tonight, I really don't know where to even begin. Have you ever lost touch with someone that you feel like maybe you were supposed to become great friends with? I have some of those people in my life and as I've been thinking about it this evening, it makes me sad. A while back, there were a few girls that I was sort of good friends with and somehow, we've lost touch and it's probably my fault. One of them recently had a baby and I wish we were still close friends but, I don't know how to make that happen. After you don't talk to someone for a few years, it just seems awkward and strange to randomly want to hang out. I'm looking at the past tonight and thinking about all the could haves and should haves. I hate that I've seen people in the grocery store and said "Yes! We should hangout!" but, nothing ever comes of it. I don't like that I've made plans with people that I want to get to know better and then at the last minute they cancel or I cancel for various reasons and honestly, I think those reasons are usually stupid insecurities. These women are awesome and I wish I was still in touch with them. I wish we were good friends but, we aren't. We lost touch and now I have other amazing people in my life but, that isn't making me not wish that it was different.
Feeling this way makes me want to be super intentional. If I say that I want to hang out with someone, I'm not going to just say it, I'm going to make sure it happens. I'm afraid of rejection but, I can't let that stop me. I'm being super transparent tonight....maybe it's the fact that it's late or maybe I hope someone reading this can relate to what I'm saying. Feeling like you passed up an opportunity for a great friendship just stinks. Losing touch with people that you feel like you should have been a better friend to is hard. I'm trying to think of a way to end this on a positive note and it's just not coming to me right now......sorry!
On a lighter note, today we had a great time decorating more pumpkins. A girl in my MOPS group posted that her parents sell pumpkins at a road side stand so, we went there this morning and bought a whole bunch.
I decorated these ones for Paisley's party. I plan on doing a post tomorrow explaining how I decorated them.
Paisley had a great time sitting on Judah's fire truck today. He was pushing her around all over the house and it was so cute to see them playing like this together. He really struggles with being gentle with her so, when they play nice, it makes me so happy.
For yesterday's Random Act of Kindness, Julie suggested that we put a little change out on our sidewalk for the neighborhood kids to go crazy over. I loved that idea so, that's what we did. Thanks for the suggestion!!!! For today's Random Act of Kindness, I bought the mini-van mom in line behind me a cup of coffee. I can't believe it's already the 18th. We're over half way done with our challenge for the month!