Journaling is one of those things that I've done off and on since I was able to write. We all remember the days when a diary with a lock and key was the thing. Us girls would write down our most secret of thoughts, with the trust that they were inside of a locked book, with the key hidden in the most sacred of places. For me, keeping a diary has gone in spurts. Sometimes, I'd commit to write in my journal everyday for a year and then when I skipped a day, I'd become discouraged and give up all together. Other times, things like my sloppy hand writing or flawed perspective would cause me to throw away the many written pages.
When Judah was born, I started blogging and it just seemed to fit. No, my blog didn't take off and become some huge widely read blog but, I never started it with that intention. Actually, when I started blogging, I told NO ONE. I was pretty sure that blogging is dorky and I didn't feel the need to have people reading my thoughts.
For the first couple of years and even sometimes now, I'd mostly write about what we did on a daily basis. Blogging was a way for me to document our daily life with words and photos. For me to taste our life twice, especially the sweet moments.
Their story is so precious to me and it needs to be written down because if it isn't, I won't remember the little details. Over the last few months, I've become increasingly convicted that their little lives need to be documented but, not for the world to see. Their story, their cute sayings and their likes and dislikes are.... their's. They are not mine to share with the world.
I so desperately hope that someday I'll be able to share with my children what they were like when they were younger but, I hope that when I share it with them, they won't feel like I shared it with the entire world first. I never want them to be in highschool and have some random classmate be able to look up on the internet what they were like when they were 3.
For a long time, blogging felt like the perfect way to "journal" our daily life and while I still love blogging, the amount of "journaling" daily life is going to go way down. Some gals are comfortable with sharing everything about their kids on their blog but, for me, it just doesn't seem to fit.
My story is mine to share. Their story is mine to hold as precious and to protect for them. And so, that's where good old-fashioned journaling comes in. In the New Year, I hope to write more of their story down, in a place that'll just be for them and of course, for me.
I hope to share my story on here in a way that's more about me, and less about them. Of course, because they are a huge part of me, I can't leave them out of my story. I can't leave them out of my photos or my writing but, I'd love to have a special place to really pour out the details of who they are, and that'll be in a journal.
With how big social media has become, it's terribly tempting to facebook every cute thing our kids say or Instagram every sweet moment that we catch. I'm just as guilty of this as anyone. However, I often wonder what it'll be like for our kids when they are older and we've shared their embarrassing moments, heck even their bathtub pictures with the entire world.
No matter who you are and where you're at in life, I'm encouraging you to write the sweet moments down, the stuff that you want to remember. If you're a Mom of teenagers, it's not too late. If you're a single gal who's still looking for Mr. Right, write letters to him. If you're a Mommy of little ones, write down what makes them laugh and what time they wake up and go to sleep. Write down the little details and don't over analyze it. And lastly, if you're a Grandma, write about the special moments with your Grandkids and write your Grandbabies letters.
Journaling doesn't have to be pretty, with perfect penmanship and well formed sentences. It can be messy and quick. You don't have to write everyday or even every week. Just write whenever you feel like there's a moment worth remembering.
Writing this post gives me a great deal of peace. Like I've said, I do love blogging but, I'm also feeling so excited about documenting my kids lives in a different way, not for anyone to read but, for them.