Lately, while I sit and feed her during the night, my mind wanders to things like clothe diapers, and baby sign language. I always wanted to clothe diaper, but I never really put the effort into researching it and doing something with my "want to". I've found myself realizing that if something really matters to me, I need to do something about it. And if it isn't that important, then I need to not worry about it. We have to pick and choose which things we're going to dwell on and if it matters, than we need to give it our best - otherwise, let it go.
Eliza might be our last and as I parent her, it sort of freaks me out that this could be my last chance. My last chance to put the "why" behind what I do, the last chance to fully enjoy having a tiny baby, my last chance to hopefully get it right. Because as Mom's, don't we want to get it right? Sometimes it's just so hard to know what that "right" is. ...
So, at her appointment, I decided to go with the happy medium for her vaccinations. We're going with a more spread out shot schedule. She'll still get them all, but they'll be more staggered, to avoid the heavy shock on her immune system. I know that this subject is a really tricky and a super controversial one. Trust me, I don't think that there's necessarily a 'right' way. Instead, I think it's best that us Mama's love and respect each other. Let's all be on the same team, high-five'n each other as we give this parenting thing our best shot.
After her appointment, we headed to the grocery store and picked up some picnic food to take to the park. We ate and then the kids played, while I laid in the grass with this girl. It was quite perfect and I'm hoping for many more summer evenings like this.
At 2 months, here's a little peak into who this girl is:
How big is she? Well, today she weighed 12lb, 13oz. She's in the 85th percentile and what's funny is that she weighs more than Paisley did at this age, but she was over a pound smaller than Paisley was when she was born. This baby has some rolls to show off.
How does she sleep? Eliza still sleeps in our room in a bassinet, but she sleeps really well there and for now, it's working great for us. With the other kids, I was in a hurry to get them out of our room, but I don't feel that rush with her. Often she'll sleep for 7 hours straight so, I have nothing to complain about. Honestly, I don't feel sleep deprived at all.
How does she nap? Recently, she started having that nap interruption at 45 minutes, that all of our kids have had. 45 minutes into her nap, she'll wake and then she has a hard time falling back to sleep. This will pass because it passed with the other ones. She naps pretty well when we're out and about. She's slept through every church service so far and she has yet to cry in a grocery store. Also, she's our first kid that likes a pacifier and for now, I'm alright with that. When she gets tired, I swaddle her up, give her the paci, lay her down and she's out.
How does she eat? She's still nursing like a champ, although the last few days she's been more interested in looking around, than eating.
Every smile, coo and thing she does has melted me over the last 2 months. I never get over it. One thing that I've learned and loved is that even though we've been through these "firsts" before, they still feel so new and so special. Being her Mommy is an honor. She is truly a gift.