Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Exactly One Year Ago

Exactly one year ago, I was pacing the floor, cramping a bit and hoping that it was really labor. I was 3 days overdue, feeling patient and also hoping that I'd get to hold my baby soon. She had been flipped from breech at 37 weeks and I was incredibly thankful that she'd stayed head down.

At 10pm, I decided to go to bed and try to sleep, because if it was labor, I knew that I'd wake up at some point and when you go into labor, it's always better to be rested, if at all possible.

I slowly got ready for bed, wondering if this cramping was in my head or if it was the real thing. Surprisingly, I was able to fall asleep. About 2 hours later, I woke up, excited that I was about to be face to face with my baby girl. I called my Mom and sister and they came over. Shortly after, we left for the hospital.

After we'd been at the hospital for only 30 minutes, we prayed and then Eliza was born.

Exactly one year ago, I couldn't imagine what a joy this little girl would be. After already having two kids, I knew it was going to be good, but I didn't know how great it really would be. Everyone said having 3 was so hard and I was scared. Little did I know that my first year with 3 would be one of my favorite years so far.

I didn't know that Judah and Paisley would treat her with love and kindness ALL THE TIME. I didn't know that even one year after her birth, they would smile at me and tell me how glad they are that she's in our family. One of my favorite quotes from this last year....

"Mama, having a baby in our family is better than sticking my head in a pie!"- Judah

This year with her has been above and beyond all I could have asked for or imagined. She has made me want to smile, when smiling doesn't feel natural. She has taught Judah and Paisley to be gentle and to look after someone smaller than them and she showed me just how compassionate and sweet a 5 and 3 year old can be.

She has shown Paisley how fun it is to be a big sister and what a joy it is to have a little baby in the family. She's allowed Paisley the opportunity to share me and to see her Mama caring for a baby. She has shown Judah that's it's very cool to have 2 little sisters and that you can be a boy and still play with girls.
When I slow down enough to really see the blessings, I feel so in awe that God chose me to be their Mama. Me, such an imperfect person. Me, with all my flaws. He specifically chose me to be the girl they call Mama. I'm the catcher of their 500 questions per day, the one who gets to make them breakfast every morning, the one who gets to teach them, love them and listen to them. I'm so very flawed and yet, He saw something in me that's worthy to be Mama to them. I can hardly handle how much that makes me want to step up to the plate and be what He thinks I'm capable of. See, He wouldn't give us this Mama job, if we weren't able to rock it. He wouldn't give us amazing little people to raise, if He thought we'd screw it all up. He looked at us and knew that we could do it....if we tried, asked for forgiveness when we mess up and then try again. He gave us grace and more than enough love to pass on.

Today I decorated cupcakes, set out presents on her highchair that her brother and sister picked out, and tomorrow we'll meet up with friends and celebrate this girl. I'm overflowing with thankfulness for this first year with her. Being a Mama is such an honor, if only we can always remember that!


  1. yes, being a Mama is such an honor Angela....thanks for spreading your blessings around for all to share...happy happy Birthday Eliza!!

  2. Happy birthday, Eliza! I know what you mean about adding a third. :)

  3. This is awesome! What a great idea! It's so cute. I love the bandage on the wall!

  4. Oh Angela, that is so sweet! Eliza is just a beauty, hope you enjoyed her party. And thank you for sharing your words. The second to last paragraph was just what I needed to read tonight after a very long, trying, break free week.


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