There's something about taking simple things, like the first camp fire of the season and letting yourself get really excited. Excitement in the simple things makes the other bigger and harder things in life seem less big and hard. Celebrate simple things and the not so simple things will seem smaller and less important, at least that's what's working for me today.
Last night I didn't sleep well at all. Normally I'm out as soon as my head hits the pillow, but last night I couldn't let some things go. This year there are a few big decisions to be made, especially when it comes to parenting. These choices just make me sick inside because I want to do what's best and I just can't figure it out and I don't know why. I know, everyone would say pray, pray, pray, and I am, but I'm still confused. Being a Mama is so good and so hard sometimes, you know? If only there was someone who could gently sit you down, hold your hand, tell you what's best for you and your family and then let you have a big cry as you process it all. And I know, I'm being so vague and that's okay, vague is allowed. I'm just a Mama who wants to do what's best, who smells like a campfire and it's all good. I love this campfire smell. I might not shower it off for a week.
So, we had our first campfire tonight and it was a beautiful time with my little family. I love that there's no right way to roast a marshmallow and the smell of a campfire is such a great sign that summer is on it's way. This fire pit was built by Daddy and Judah as a Mother's Day gift almost 3 years ago. This is where big worries are forgotten, fingers become sticky and we all let our guards down. These are my favorite simple moments from the weekend.
Goal for the summer? Have more friends over for this.