The theme this year is all about being YOU bravely and the gals at my table are amazing. We have the best mix of different backgrounds and personalities and I've never appreciated such a diverse group of women more. This will be the year where we truly sharpen each other and help each other become more like the Moms that God created us to be. From the bottom of my heart, I love each one of those women.
Yesterday I read one of the stories in this book and it completely blew me away. To be honest, I loved it so much so that I looked the gal up on Facebook and sent her a message, telling her how awesome it was. I'm just like that. I guess I'm a little over the top, but we'll get back to that in a moment.
Mandy Arioto is the gal that wrote this piece called "Courage To Be Too Much" and I just can't get over how good it is. All my life, I've been a feeler. I feel other people's emotions so strongly that it's distracting for me, when I'm trying to just have a conversation. I feel so strongly that I can't watch things that are scary, because to me, they aren't "just movies". I cry easily, talk loud sometimes, get upset, love BIG, laugh HARD and when I feel sad, sometimes it feels like the end of the world. I;m a deep thinker, I don't like small talk and I wish more people talked about what they'd like to do with their life. I've been told that I'm too intense. I've wished that I wasn't such a feeler.
I've told myself that one of my kids, who's also lives LARGE, is also too much. I've tried to put myself into a box and I've wondered if there's something wrong with me because I'm not an "Even Steven" like some of them.
What Mandy wrote in her post touched me so deeply, because it reminded me that the world NEEDS people who allow themselves to feel. The world needs people who aren't numb.
As a mom, I need to allow my wild child to be too much. That one who can be a bit much? Well, she needs to be able to dress crazy, dance, sing loud, and live BIG, just they way God made her.
Mandy writes, "For me, giving myself permission to be too much means that I show up in big ways. I bring a gift when it wasn't expected. I re-write a song for my friends 40th Birthday and force my husband to perform it with me. I go out of my way to let people know how much I love them, I give myself permission to feel. This can be embarrassing for my kids. They question why I dance in the store when my favorite song comes on.
Giving ourselves permission to feel means we are free from over analyzing our every move. We get to live in the freedom that our uniquness if a gift to the world. Meant to be shared. Meant to be lived.
We need more insanely brave people who are willing to offer their "too much" to the world. "
Gosh, I love that.
Go be too much.
Love too big.
Laugh too loud.
Let your kids be too much and don't let anyone ever tell you that you're too much.